… I don’t really get the ‘one year to live’ experiment thing. How can someone guide you in it ? Is he gonna pay my bills and my apt. when I do the experiment ? As far as I am concerned, I am already doing it this past year - doing (some) of the things I always wanted to do, and always had (very good) excuses why I can’t do them... the only thing I would really add to what I am already doing, if I had one year, is stop paying my stupid mortgage and bills, not give a Polish rat's ass about my credit card and shmedit card, and just leave all form of western capitalist life style and go travel around the world. Have as much experiences as possible, have as much sex as possible, say thanks and goodbye to as many friends as possible, eat good food, see nice places, organize my papers and ship them to Israel, and... that’s it ! These are the things I would regret not doing (in addition to having success with my band and my acting, which I am trying to achieve anyway...) when I am on my deathbed. And if I need to concise it to what really comes to my mind spontaneously, it would be: have a real Rock band, travel the world, meet more girls, and leave something valuable behind me – art, or some major contribution to the welfare of animals all over the world. What would you answer ? In fact, that’s the exact phrasing of the question that I ask myself, and that I hear both at Landmark, and in all my other studies, like Buddhism. In fact, there is a Buddhist meditation which is recommended to do daily, and that is the ‘death meditation’ ! Doing exactly what you said, but really imagining your deathbed.

As for shifting my perspective, I don’t need a year for that. Every Buddhist lecture I go to, or Landmark event I go to, shifts my perspective a bit, and then life (or at least life here...) brings you back to the usual chase... I just heard an amazing Buddhist teacher here, Lama Marut (American guy), who basically said that we all waste our precious lives on 3 stupid and useless things (which I don’t do much anyway...): 1. Entertainment, 2. Work, 3. Working on our relationships. So, he says, we all need to wake up and do something important with our lives, before this short window of opportunity that we have in this lifetime, closes...

What’s stopping me from falling in love ? I guess: a) I don’t really want to, it hurts, and b) I need to meet the right person for that... it all boils down to the right person. No matter what fears we have, when the right person comes along, it happens whether we want it or not ! I don’t think I deliberately go into things which won’t work... but I definitely ignore major signs for things that don’t work (like age, location, etc.), because I do what I feel like and what the universe brings me, when other people might listen to the signs and not go for it (like: she's too young, she lives in another country, she is this, she is that...)